This Life They See

I have not been in a good place lately. I hope to come out of it soon, but I am having a very hard time with everything right now. I wrote this "thing" to try and express my feelings. I don't know if it is a poem or whatever but who cares, it is what it is...

the thoughts were easy
the path always clear
always knowing
never any fear

things happen as they should
goals achieved one after the next
life seems so easy
live with no regrets

how could this happen?
how did I get here?
with no one to talk to
all full of fear

have I been asleep?
or living some other life?
i feel so alone
so helpless and lost

you don't know about a perfect life
it's what you think you want
then realize the knife
nowhere to go

someone has to suffer
does it always have to be me?
thoughts are so dark
feelings so cold

who would understand?
who really cares?

with life there are choices
some easy and some hard
there are people you love
and others that love you

they are not always the same
one of life's little tricks
to beat you down hard
to test your strength
and harden your heart

no one is immune
it's your choice indeed
to let life break you
or to hold strong and need
to conquer your mind
and overcome your fears

it's okay to be alone
sometimes in tears
for you are only human
and it comes down to this
even knowing what you want
is rarely what you need

others think its perfect
this life they see

if only they could know you
how your heart makes you suffer
it's something not seen

you put on a smile
and make them believe
its a perfect life
this life they see

No time for depression

A number of years ago someone sent me a very cool video Planet Earth and it really moved me. I was curious about this thing called "The Secret" and looked into it further. I ended up ordering the DVD and I didn't mention it to my wife because I was not sure if it was a sham or not. When it arrived I watched it on my computer when my wife was not around. To my amazement, it really was an incredible secret that changed my life from that moment on. When I was part way through the DVD, my wife walked in and did not say a word. She stayed behind me and watched over my shoulder. When it was over I realized that I had been crying most of the way through it. When I turned to my wife, she just said "Wow, where did you get that?". I have seen The Secret a number of times since then and each time I am emotionally moved by it. For my life has always followed the law of attraction even though I did not know it.

Someone very close to me spent many years of her life suffering from depression. I always offered positive influence, but it didn't seem to be enough to break through. She was on medication and tried self help groups, but they showed little improvement. One day I decided to order her a DVD and when it arrived, she called me after watching it. She said that it was "unbelievable" and asked if it was real. I said it has to be, or I wouldn't have sent it to her in the first place. She watched it again and then again and her transformation was what I would call unbelievable. Today she is a very happy and positive person. She inspires others and lives a charmed life.

I don't write this post because I am getting kick-backs from The Secret. They don't even know I exist except for the two transactions I made purchasing DVDs. Its just that I feel so helpless when I hear other people down and out, complaining about someone or something, arguing just for the sake of arguing. I want people, especially those I care about, to know that life is amazing. I want them to know that they can do ANYTHING they want to, and that it all begins with a positive thought.

If I could come up with an analogy as to how it works, I would just tell you to watch Star Wars Episode I. I think George Lucas knew The Secret a very long time ago and those movies were his way of letting people know. "...the Force is what gives a Jedi his power. It's an energy field created by all living things. It surrounds us and penetrates us. It binds the galaxy together." Understanding the Secret is similar to becoming a Jedi. Think about that, then go get your DVD

May the force will be with you.